feelings

I have not got my computer back because I am not always in my place where I am staying right now. Actually, I only have very few things with me. Although almost all my things are already packed in boxes, I am not sure I am ready to move them until I have already a place that I can really call my own-and that would mean at least 4-6 months from now(although I am moving a bit faster to make it shorter). I cannot even buy new things for myself and even having second thoughts of taking my earlier plan to see my friend in Singapore during the summer. Too complicated to share with you all the details right now but I guess I am learning a lot from this experience. Too painful, difficult and mind boggling but I am coping. I feel like those falling leaves of the cherry blossoms tree.....

I am in a far away land-far from my family and I feel like nobody like me to stay here(almost everybody have asked me if I am going back to my country). I miss my family back home but I have already connected myself in this country already. My siblings have their own families and problems that I never wanted to burden them with my problems right now. I cannot also just leave my job and my things. I shall continue writing later on---I've got to go now...

sorry

Some quotes from an old book that I have just finished reading.
"It's the journey that matters not the destination."
"Why not live my life as I choose to live it? Be damned to other people's opinion. After all, I only have one life, don't I?"

I only have some minutes to use the scanner and computer and also to upload my sketches. No time to enhance them. By the way, the quotes doesn't apply to my situation-I only picked them randomly.

Possible(?)

You can have different and lots of ideas regarding this illustration. Please feel free to share whatever you think is possible or impossible......

I am glad I was able to save this on a disc. I hope I can really come back soon! I still don't have my own computer with me yet. Missing you all!

I am not yet back

May 1st was my one year anniversary in the blogging world, and I am not happy for not being able to blog on that day and the days that follows .... Anyway, I have some news for you-I am temporarily staying in a nice room with a beautiful view of the sky. There are beautiful trees that are starting to bloom and birds that keeps me company in the night and, also a beautiful star that have been there all night long. I can see all of them while lying on my bed. The weather over here have become very pleasant since 1st of May and I am terribly enjoying that little warmth I feel on my back everytime I go walking.

My faith and dreams have been giving me strength and inspiration to go on despite of the biggest problem I am having in my life right now. I didn't know this could be so painful. I have cried so hard almost everyday and every other day since last weekend. The fact that I am alone......No family members to turn to and very few friends that I can really trust. I have been solving my problem and moving all by myself. I will tell you all about it when I am back already. I have not got my computer with me and have been using the internet in the library. I terribly miss Illustration Friday. I have started drawing again and have done the topics since I left. I like the topic for this week a lot and have done three already. I will publish all of them when I am back. I also miss visiting all your sites. Thank you my friends for your support and for not forgetting about me. Say a prayer for me, too. What a nice season to move on and to welcome another beginning.....