feelings

I have not got my computer back because I am not always in my place where I am staying right now. Actually, I only have very few things with me. Although almost all my things are already packed in boxes, I am not sure I am ready to move them until I have already a place that I can really call my own-and that would mean at least 4-6 months from now(although I am moving a bit faster to make it shorter). I cannot even buy new things for myself and even having second thoughts of taking my earlier plan to see my friend in Singapore during the summer. Too complicated to share with you all the details right now but I guess I am learning a lot from this experience. Too painful, difficult and mind boggling but I am coping. I feel like those falling leaves of the cherry blossoms tree.....

I am in a far away land-far from my family and I feel like nobody like me to stay here(almost everybody have asked me if I am going back to my country). I miss my family back home but I have already connected myself in this country already. My siblings have their own families and problems that I never wanted to burden them with my problems right now. I cannot also just leave my job and my things. I shall continue writing later on---I've got to go now...