enough is enough

One thing that can make me draw and paint, when I am inspired and really really feeling very sad. How many times had I tried to share what I am feeling right now. .... How many times I wrote something and then erased it afterwards. I was afraid that I was making me look like a fool in your eyes especially when I am sharing a half baked story because it was too long a story to tell.........

and so I was writing earlier.........

He has no right to show up in my doorsteps to get that paper he has forgotten in my flat. I was ready to send it....ok....I went out the door with my used clothes that I had to give away....and to buy some milk in the store. He was there standing and waiting for me. I gave him the paper without looking and turned my back and headed towards the store 100 meters away. When I was coming back. I saw him still standing there. He wanted to talk to me and said that he misses me and embraced me so hard. I did not let him in and we sat in the garden for a while. I told him that I am trying to move on and he should realized how much pain he had put me through by pressing me on the marriage issue..........etc.....Thanks to God. He gave me strength and I was able to send him away. ....life life life....I thought this thing only happens in the movies.......The phone keeps on ringing and let it ring all day long.......